HEY, HELLO YOU COME IN AND LET’S TALK A LITTLE BIT
My name is Nico, nice to meet you!
Awesome that you’ve found the way to my blog.
I want to talk to you about the worst and best phases of my life,
how I dealt with them growing up to be a happy calm and confident man today.
It’s about a time of illness, pain and despair but also of happiness, victory and development.
My Curse
At least I sometimes see it as a curse, even if, in retrospect, ironically, I could also speak of it as a blessing.
But more about that later on.
It’s about a disease I struggeld with for a long time.
It’s a inflammatory bowel disease called ulcerative colitis.
If you wonder what that’s about check my article on inflammatory bowel disease’s:
Everything you need to know about inflammatory bowel disease’s
But for now all you need to know is that this disease is a nasty one and stole three complete years of my early 20’s.
three years in which I was not able to participate in an activity,
three years without celebrating,
three years of imense physical and emotional stress,
three years without control of my own body,
three years of hiding,
three years of sleepless nights characterized by unbelievable pain and a life-consuming devouring cold.
three years in which I was the one who never wanted to do anything, but in reality I could not.
It’s embarresing, it’s the most painful thing I ever had to go through and it takes over your life if you are not careful.
One pillar of this blog is about my fight with this disease and how I managed to win.
It’s considered chronic and worsens normally with the time but I can live almost completely symptom-free today.
If you are here becouse you suffer as well or know someone who does please check out my post on how I managed to beat that disease and took back controle over my life.
My Battle With Inflammatory Bowel Disease’s And How I Won
Bullying
The second pillar this blog consists of is all about bullying.
Not many people know this about me, especially not the people I have met later in my life but I have a serious past with bullying.
Today im not the type of guy u look at and think well this guy propably knows how it is to be a bullying victim,
but trust me I know this topic better than I would like to.
Growing up I always been one of the one of the silent children.
I had problems with making new friends and beeing open to the world.
I think im a natural introvert.
That combined with the bad taste of my mother who had chosen my clothes for me made me the perfect victim.
Bulliying is serious and does not only happen in school.
It happens in friend circles in familys and day to day life situations.
It doesn’t always leave visible marks like scratches or bruises.
It hides therefore it comes by quiet and deceitful.
The scars often remain on the soul instead of the skin.
When I was a kid this combined with problems at home and in school lead to some serious suicidal thoughts and my parents to this day didn’t even know about it at all.
Thats why this topic is really personal to me and I have made it my goal to educate and give help.
How to life in this world
I know we life in a modern flashy world of abundance and vacations and should not complain, right?
However, reality shows that we live in a world that’s growing faster and developing faster than most people can keep pace with.
Social media, the need of always beeing online and reachable, performance pressure, a scary working world, Global Warming, Politics, Global conflicts, terrorist attacks and so mutch more people and espacially young adults have to deal with.
So often I see people asking why did this man or woman go crazy, got burned out or lost thair mind?
My question is why do not all people go crazy?
I’ve noticed a incredible number of young people in my environment suffering from panic disorder, depression, anxiety, lack of motivation and much more.
I predict a literall epidemic.
Through my illness, I spent an immense time alone and thought about life and the world.
I was able to consolidate my character and form opinions.
I hope that trhough my articley I can help people to find thair place and the right values in this world!
The Mission
I see this blog as my chance to share my experiences and help others.
I am not sure if this is asking too much or if I can reach anyone at all.
but I decided to give it a try, even if I can only help a single person out of a difficult time.
Even if I can only read a single message, a single comment that someone gained the strengh for another day through my words.
then I will know that everything i went through was worth it.
I have spent a tremendous amount of time with my own thoughts.
I have questioned and relied on my own actions and thoughts hundreds of times.
I have followed a variety of topics from health to philisophy, from society to relationships.
There were times when I worked hard and those where I could not motivate myself to get out of bed, times of sickness, pain and despair.
I would like to share all these life experiences with you.
This is where my experiences with bullying and disease comes in as a wired kind of blessing.
Unfortunately, I know exactly how it is when you just want to give up, when you can’t see any light at the end of the road.
I was there for a long long time, night after night I was there, alone.
I didn’t know if what I was doing was the right thing or not.
But I have not given up, I kept going.
I got into this situation as a boy but I came out of it as a man.
And more than that I came out of it as the strongest, self confident and calm version that I could ever become!
I feel like at some day I just woke up and I wasn’t afraid of life anymore.
I was’t afraid of who I want to become in the future.
I wasn’t afraid of my career choice anymore or if I can convince a very special woman of mine, wich I did!
I woke up and I had accepted that life will be hard sometimes.
But now I did know that even though that, I can overcome any obstacle life throws at me.
And I know you can too!
now it’s my self-applied mission to make you beleave exactly that.
